Hello, new to thelema...

[Windley1975]

Figured i'd intoduce myself a little bit. I"m windley, new to thelema. It has always interested me. I've read and tried many things over the years. I've practiced wicca, satanism, luciferianism, asatru, and still yet i feel that none of those are deep enough. Sure, I love magick and knowledge and still seek to find my divine higher self, to become a more powerful intellectual person. Don't we all? I've just now read the Book of the Law, was quite interesting though some things were unclear.

Ok, i've noticed that has a lot of Egyptian bearings, and some of Crowley's other stuff isn't so Egyptian. When i read about the part of the Prince-Priest the Beast and the scarlet woman, well i'm sure Lucifer/Lilith came to mind. So would i look at the deities of Thelema as being Egyptian, or do i use my own perspective/deities? This confuses me.

Also, I live far away from any temple or college of Thelema and there are no teachers of Thelema where i live that i know of. I would love to join the college of thelema to learn more and do initiations, but I can't always travel to do them. So, I wish to keep studying and will keep reading the In the continuum and other things on the college site, as well as Crowley's Magick in Theory and Practice.

Also, if i do continue to study and learn everything by practice, would i consider myself thelemite even if i don't do the proper inititation/going to the college? (i live in alabama right now, originally from rhode island though, but i can't move back to RI because it's too expensive to live up there.lol...so i'm stuck with the bible belt and not knowing any other thelemites that can teach me better) I'm really seriously interested and I feel in my heart and soul that this is the right path for me. It seems to have everything I need and want as far as a path goes. So, any other info would help. i can travel maybe once a year to the closest temple which is new york if i had to do initiations, but if there's a self initiation or online teachers, that would be good too. anyway, thanks for reading, i'm semi long winded and detailed.

thanks

[Quintessence]

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

[JPF]

Also, if i do continue to study and learn everything by practice, would i consider myself thelemite even if i don't do the proper inititation/going to the college? (i live in alabama right now, originally from rhode island though, but i can't move back to RI because it's too expensive to live up there.lol...so i'm stuck with the bible belt and not knowing any other thelemites that can teach me better) I'm really seriously interested and I feel in my heart and soul that this is the right path for me. It seems to have everything I need and want as far as a path goes. So, any other info would help. i can travel maybe once a year to the closest temple which is new york if i had to do initiations, but if there's a self initiation or online teachers, that would be good too. anyway, thanks for reading, i'm semi long winded and detailed.

Sometimes the best thing you can do for your spiritual state is to alter the material.

In this case, perhaps it is your "True Will" to get the hell out of Alabama. Unless, of course, there are some particularly strong spiritual influences keeping you there, which I doubt is the case.

At any rate, the first thing to do is to figure out your "True Will," and then follow it. A perusal of the Book of the Law will acquaint you with the basics of this task. If you're really meant to go anywhere in life, you'll end up doing most of the dirty work by yourself anyways. Happy hunting.